welcome to the job centre - it is our aim to patronise you.

Urgh,
the job centre I was going to decided that it was too understaffed and too busy to deal with my claim anymore so it sent me to another one, who didn't have a clue about what was going on. That was last week, and today was my first time there. it was awful, and if I had a choice I wouldn't go back.

on the flipside, I have a job interview tomorrow and also have picked the flowers for the wedding.

i'm currently trying to wear in a new pair of shoes for tomorrow, but I bet my feet swell and blister like bitches anyway. bah.

donut seeds for sale - see local cereal section at supermarket.

I am totally fed up.
no job = Boredom
no job = no money
boredom + no money = fed up me.

:(

went to the job centre yesterday. it was rubbish. i signed a bit of paper. that was it.
today I met Liz for lunch. went to my aunts for a bit, then came home to dinner and dads birthday cake. he is 50 today. bless him.

tomorrow I might go to Bromley for my sister to look at shoes, although I am not at all motivated. :(

parents are off to Paris for dads birthday tomorrow. I hope they enjoy it.

I was going to apply for a digital photography course, but it was £115.50 and I don't have any money. so thats rubbish.
one day next week, I think im going to take my camera out for the day. dunno where I'll do, but I'll figure something out.

riding bareback through the forrest.

I've just completed the online assessment for the DWP. It was surprisingly hard. I hope that I have done enough to pass, and warrant them ringing me to arrange an interview! my fingers are crossed.

as usual not much is happening. i've applied for jobs, gone to do exercise. all in all sod all.
I'm in one of my downers today. sometimes part of me just wants to shut off and do absolutley nothing at all. the other part of me is going"come on, dont worry, it'll be ok" and then the other part just flips me the bird and tells me to shut the fuck up.


argh! have been thinking about trying to write somemore. haven't a clue on what to do however. was thinking i could write a mills and boons style book. I read enough to get the gist of what they (mills and boon) like, so it can't be too hard. and the thing is that I have all these fantastic ideas, and then when it comes to writing them down, I just go to pieces! and nothing comes out.

I got my wedding shoes yesterday. save 30% which roughly equated to a fiver. still a fiver saved.

I have to go to the job centre on tuesday. I hate that. :(
I feel like such a low life when I enter that building.

the lights are on but there's nobody home

you would think that by being unemployed I'd blog more often, but clearly not. Not only have I got sod all to do, what on earth is the point of blodding every few days to say I've not really done much. bah.

so unemployment is beginning to suck. i find myself less and less motivated to do anything. even though the weather is good outside, I can't even be motivated to go and sit in the garden.

i am thinking of finding something to do where I can keep myself entertained, however without much money, it's becoming increasingly difficult.

I joined the gym. that's costing me £25 a month on job seekers. last week i went 3 times and this week I've been twice. I plan on going at the weekend, if I feel up to it.

in other news Isleworth swimming pool reopens on Saturday, so i can add that to my fitness regieme.

My birthday was good. we went to Frankie and Bennys in Kingston, by we, I mean, Daniel, I, Soph, Kim, Drew and Tom. It was good fun and I really enjoyed it.
Got some pretty cool gifts too.

I've got my hospital appointment tomorrow, so see an Orthapaedic doctor person about my carpal tunnel syndrome in my hands. I guess he will take a look and them, do some sort of tests and decide whether or not I have to have an operation to decompress the carpal tunnel. If I have to have an operation, that will be much fun. if I haven't got a job by them, then i'll have some sort of excitement in my life. har har.

I went to see Sophie at work yesterday, see what her and Jo do. It's pretty awesome. they found it hilarious watching me, watching them, work. It's brilliant. Then we went for lunch at the pub across the road. It was pretty cool.

Went to the Quins V Warriors match last night at the Stoop. It was so ace. I was mega hyped up. more than usual. Quins won the match 60 to 14. Everyone (well the Quins fans) were on a high.

ok - so now an update on the job front. I've applied for about 105 jobs now, and had 1 interview (2 weeks ago) they said they'd come back to me about the second interview within 2 weeks, and they haven't. I've emailed them twice now, with no response either time. So I think that one is a dead end.

Getting a job is extremely dull and tedious. there doesn't seem to be anything at all out there. well you'd think there was, what with the hundreds of jobs online on the various internet job sites. but then i suppose when you have between 200 and 300 people goibng to for the same job, it's bound to be difficult. all I can do is keep looking.

I should be sending off my insurance claim forms to the insurers this week, but I can't as the Previous Employer section has been completed incorrectly, by incorrectly I mean, with all the wrong dates on it and dates that dont correlate with one another. So now I have to start again, and it'll take another week or 2 for me to sort it out, and then another 4 - 6 weeks if I am lucky for the insurance company to make a decision as to whether they are going to pay my claims. If they don't, then to be polite, I'm a bit fucked. as I only have just enough money to pay my bills for the next 2 months (this doesn't include any money to live on) and then after it's all gone, I have no idea what I will do.

To be honest I really need to get a job within the next 6 weeks to survive. :( and it's looking unlikely.

anyways, enough depressing prose.
but then again - I've now got nowt else to say. so I guess, this is farewell for the next fortnight or so.

tata!