Friday, 29 April 2011

the problem with...

I've not been feeling myself lately.  Today especially.

Why?

Lies. Petty ones.

Lies damage things.  Trust, Self-esteem, confidence, careers, relationships, and well, quite honestly the list goes on.

This one lie, it's pretty hurtful if I'm honest.  It's damaged my trust and unfortunately my ability to eat in front of my work colleagues, I'm now very self-conscious.

Considering I love cooking, and therefore eating (don't get me wrong I'm not a pig, although if you listen to this one colleague of mine, I am) and parts of this blog are all about food and recipes, this poses a problem.


How in light of this opinion lie, can I enjoy cooking, and eating, and creating recipes and meals?


Over the last fews days I've not yet figured that out, and I'm not sure when or how I will.


Since this lie reached my ears, I've eaten less, and lost a dress size.  For the first time in my life I am conscious of what I eat for fear of people judging me.  It's unhealthy and the stepping stone for eating disorders.


I am determined not to take this path.
I won't let your lies do that to me.


You are pathetic and petty and mean, to make up lies about someone who's done nothing but be friendly and nice.  You're the second colleague to tell lies about me, and no doubt I'm sure you won't be the last.


Office politics eh?


When one has friends like this, who needs enemies!